Today I don’t like my damaged mind at all…

 Thoughts run like a fast train …

Dreams and reality crashes together…

It’s gonna take time…

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The Future what does it hold?

I am already lost because of the country I grew up in kicked me out due to it’s law system. Making it a human right to offend someone… Visa about to run out so don’t really know what happens next… I am applying for visa to stay here. I want to get a life here and forget the past that seem to have dragged me down all too long already…

If I don’t get to stay here I got to find elsewhere than Norway. Where that will be I don’t know, somewhere to hide away…

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When loosing my mind…

I seem to have gone down a very wrong road loosing my mind… Thinking and believing so wrong. Not even knowing who I have been talking to or even been in love with all these years. Life a big Hoax all together? Someone made me believe as if he was in love with me.

Trapped with an x game I didn’t ask for… Well I ain’t going to any Grizzly, take your mind game elsewhere whoever you are.

When something steals your mind and drags you around…

Not knowing who I am anymore… At least no ones mirror.

I haven’t lost my love for country music that I won’t loose. Or my son, I am a mom, I love to go for walks, jog, eat out and see new places.

One thing is certain I am no trophy to be hunted on. Date me for real…. Take your time… Right now I am lost and no good for anyone…

In treatment…

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Like Trapped In A Hurricane

Feel like my world spins

Round and round

Out flies old memories

Like trapped in a hurricane

 

Writings on the ground

Writings on the walls

Words and numbers

Like trapped in a hurricane

 

Like the movie

A Beautiful mind

My world spins

Like trapped in a hurricane

 

My mind a little lost

How was I to be born

On that island leading me into

Like trapped in a hurricane

 

Reality and dreams

A perfect plan

To drive me crazy

Like trapped in a hurricane

 

God was to take me home

To Tennessee

Where I am to be

Like trapped in a hurricane

 

So this is how

No mans land feels like

Stranded on land

Like trapped in a hurricane

Janne Helen February 2018

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Happy New Year

I spent the holidays in hotel. But took a trip to Florida and some beach life for the New Years. I enjoyed it very much, even though a little chilly in between the days where I went.

I see the Norwegian law system seem to have woken up to a better meaning for people struggling with restraint orders and opposite violent alarms. Broadened it to count for a whole county. It helped talking about it in the end, but not for me. I fled the country. On tourist visa until end February at least.

Glad there is no snow here where I am yet. My MS is still doing alright despite no medicines. Supposed to start new ones soon.

Haven’t met Mr wonderful yet and don’t know when that will happen ❤ He too busy…

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Left Norway…

I have now left Norway and for good I hope most for. I be on the move…

Freedom isn’t easy to get and it needs time for healing and alone time… I haven’t met my angel yet, but hopefully soon, he seems to be very busy ❤

I enjoy my time here where I am. Getting used to the food and people are kind and helpful. Here I can be me and talk about whatever.

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Feels Good

After I crashed in the bottom of my stairs outside in August last year I gained a lot of weight. But this summer I got back in excersising after a long wait for physiotherapy after my MRI last december. See Norwegian healthsystem, lets wait and see what happens… (I usually say we got good time in dying living here being ill in any form)…

I feel much better healthwise and it feels so good being able to jog again, can’t remember last time I did, maybe it was lillehammer 2003?

So From this June 2017:

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To This November 2017:

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