Category Archives: Abuse

Should had been bald..

Posted on 2. July 2012 by Jane Helen

I have some small evidence that the abuse and the abuser haven’t won and I have been stronger than him Many of times I have thought I should rather just shave all of my hair off my head, been bald. … Continue reading →

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Wrap me up in cotton

Posted on 2. July 2012 by Jane Helen

The body is always alerted, automatically. I am worn out.. The panic and horror sits so deep. The anxiety.. I can feel it in my body that it’s like someone is hunting at me, or around each corner someone will … Continue reading →

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Evil…

Posted on 2. July 2012 by Jane Helen

If one get exposed for repeating abuse from one is little, beaten up, treated like a ragdoll. How long would you keep up against it and not do the same thing? Or turn crazy because of it? … Mommys boxing … Continue reading →

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“I’m sorry but I didn’t mean it”

Posted on 26. June 2012 by Jane Helen

That he told me sometimes when he left after finished his business. To read the reports from the court case that just finished did trigger me a lot. It started with the TV pictures in the 22nd of July. The … Continue reading →

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Too painful to be true. – Denial

Posted on 17. June 2012 by Jane Helen

The opposite of «Too good to be true» is: Too painful to be true. It is sexual abuse committed towards children we are talking about. Therefor we are in denial in the same way as we are for the good … Continue reading →

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True Pain

Posted on 13. June 2012 by Jane Helen

I haven’t experienced war I haven’t seen anyone die But I have experienced to be beaten, spit on, looked up, sexualy abused. I have experienced people turning their ears off not to listen to pain and to understand. I have … Continue reading →

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I am angry, but I can’t be…

Posted on 11. June 2012 by Jane Helen

I am so angry and all I want Is to shout, yell and scream And break something hard But I can’t manage to be Angry like that He strangled me Took my breath away Lost my feelings one by one … Continue reading →

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Process of healing

Posted on 22. March 2012 by Jane Helen

Lately I have been reading a lot of Norwegian self-help books about sexual abuse and to better understand my own situation. One of the books is translated from English so I will list it first under. My own thoughts about … Continue reading →

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Because of you, abuser

Posted on 16. January 2012 by Jane Helen

The closer I get I just want to run even further away. Why did you kill me to then take me back to life to just only torture me? I didn’t wanted you air, my body protested and you still … Continue reading →

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Incest should be talked to death, but…

Posted on 5. November 2011 by Jane Helen

I keep on getting told by docters, psyciatrsist, people that work with abused children and adults and others with same experience that we should talk about our experience, it should be talked to death. … But what happens when people … Continue reading →

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