The body is always alerted, automatically. I am worn out..
The panic and horror sits so deep. The anxiety..
I can feel it in my body that it’s like someone is hunting at me, or around each corner someone will attack me. Jumps for each small movement.
I made a wish to be put in a coma to give my body and mind a pause..
In the middle of the night I am rudely awaken, it’s like he is there and doing it again, but the room is empty. And the breath is knocked out of me.
Wrap me in cotton, let my senses have a rest…