I am angry, but I can’t be…

I am so angry and all I want
Is to shout, yell and scream
And break something hard
But I can’t manage to be
Angry like that

He strangled me
Took my breath away
Lost my feelings one by one
First I couldn’t see
Then it all went silent
I couldn’t feel anything
I couldn’t breath
It was pitch black

I am so angry and all I want
Is to shout, yell and scream
And break something hard
But I can’t manage to be
Angry like that

Awaken by his mouth
Towards mine and
My body was protesting
Tied to the sofa
His air in my lungs
Him screaming
“Don’t die, don’t die”
Shaking my body

I am so angry and all I want
Is to shout, yell and scream
And break something hard
But I can’t manage to be
Angry like that

Pins and needles everywhere
The thirst and the hunger
But no sound out of me
Coughing and aching
Screaming inside
(Set me free, let me go
Let me run out of here)
A glass of water
And the words he spoke
“This didn’t happen
Don’t tell anyone”…

I am so angry and all I want
Is to shout, yell and scream
And break something hard
But I can’t be angry like that

——————————————————————–

Now I told it what you did me wroong…
Are you going to try do it all again?
There’s nothing more to take so let me be!
Even though you kept me alive it was wrong so wrong!
I was only 11-12 years old…

If just something could take away the pain…

About Jane Helen

40 year old and single. Have a 15 yr old son that live in England with his father and family there. Got MS and PTSD.
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1 Response to I am angry, but I can’t be…

  1. Berit says:

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