Because of you, abuser

The closer I get I just want to run even further away.
Why did you kill me to then take me back to life to just only torture me?
I didn’t wanted you air, my body protested and you still forced it into me!
Why couldn’t you let me die?
Why didn’t you let me go?
All I ever wanted was someone to STOP you from torturing me!
All you got was lousey 2 years for destroying MY life!
And now destroying my sons’ life too!
I told way too many to place blame on only you, but only YOU alone is responsible!
You can impossibly imagine what it was like going through all you did to ME!
Someone should put you at a desert island like where you put me since I was 6 years old!
My mind goes like a Twister because of you!

This song describes the most of how I live my life today…

About Jane Helen

40 year old and single. Have a 15 yr old son that live in England with his father and family there. Got MS and PTSD.
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2 Responses to Because of you, abuser

  1. maren k osmundsen says:

    Hei, maren her..
    Den sangen der kjenner jeg meg masse igjen, føler akkurat det som blir sagt..
    det du skrev var så ekte og sårt at jeg begynte å grine.
    jeg vil bare si du er kjempe tøff og en veldig sterk person
    hold ut ❤ ❤

    • Janne Helen says:

      Hei maren og takk for at du skriver på bloggen min ❤

      Det er en smerte jeg kjenner på og har kjent på siden… Man blir nummen og likegyldig på omgivelsene for ingen hverken ville se eller høre på meg.. Det har vært tungt mange ganger.. Har jo klart å komme så langt så hvor det enn ender? …

      Jeg må også legge til at den video snutten beskriver ikke virkeligheten min slik. Det er innholdet i sangen som jeg vil frem til som beskriver livet mitt på grunn av han..

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