Wishing you a Happy New Year ❤

I started the 1st day in the new year with coughing and drinking lots of warm drinks, all I have available like tea, warm milk with honey and hot chocolates. I don’t like coffee 😛 I just hope this is gone by tomorrow, but I sure can dream.. The fever is still unstable and I am in my 3rd day with coughing :-S

I managed to get well enough to see my head docter again today and it was important to see him after a long holiday. And I started talking about the worst happenings in my life.. I haven’t been allowed to talk too much about it, because people don’t want to listen or know.. I know there is no other way around this than talking about it, hopefully I can find out where the error on my brain occurred and how to untangled the trouble it still causes me in my way of thinking :-S I already think I know, but have to talk my way through it with my head docter.. And it takes time. Perhaps end of February we are done talking about it, ??? .. Or perhaps next year after today..

I am also happy that I have managed to agree with my sons father to share the summer holidays my son have in half each, so I get to have my son for 3 whole weeks 🙂 (As long as it won’t crash with trauma treatment..).

Tomorrow I will start with my studies again after not looked at them since the day before I went to pick up my son in England just before Christmas. I think I will pick it up quick, I still remember a lot without looking at the books and that must be a good sign 🙂

This is the first year that I am totally free from that dumbhead of an abuser.. ??? On paper and technically, but my body and mind will it ever be free from it? … Tick tock, only time can show that…